So it's funny how quickly things change. 2 weeks ago I wasn't the person I am today. I am stronger and can notice a lot faster when I fall weak and suceptible to manipulation. It doesn't just click for me what I am doing right, and even though sometimes I would believe myself to be wrong because of words that have been spoken to me, and most of the time the person opposite of me doesn't even realize or intentially manipulate me.
It is through this, that I know with God as my strength , I have to take a stand, and I have to step up to the plate and prepare myself for troubles, and prepare myself for heartache. Last night I talked to someone who I haven't talked to in a long time, in 5 months actually. And! I talked to another person who I haven't talked to in a year, and it felt so good to connect with those people again that I had lost touch with.
I love being social, and I love every one of my friends and I am so grateful for all of my friends that I have been so blessed with, and even when I don't talk to them in a long time, or pretty much abandon them, at the end of the day they are still there.
I am lucky, I am blessed, I am saved.
Sam